Saturday, April 4, 2015

These kaneru blooms , on the other side of the debokkawa

ඔය දෙබොක්කාවට එහයින් 
එක යායට
බිමට නැමී ඇති 
කනේරු මල් 
පිපේවිද 
ඉරාගෙන අහස් ගැබ 
ඉරු එලිය 
එබෙන්ටත් කලින් 
හෙටත් 
අද වාගේම ?


වැව , නුඹට මතකද 
ගිය අමාවක අඳුර 
නුවර වැව හොවාගෙන 
වැඩිය සීතල සුළඟ ?


ඒ සුළඟ වඩීවිද 
ආයෙමත් 
පුරපසට ?

අඩුමතරමින් 
ඊළඟ අමාවකට?

නිදි නැතිව 
බැලුම්ගල 
එන එන සෙනගට 
සොඳුරු ඝන අරණ 
පෙන්නමින් 
මුමුණන හීන් වැව් දිය 
ඉඳීවිද
මේ වගේ 
දෙතොලඟ සිරවුන 
මතක පද අහුලමින් 
ආයෙමත් 
හමුවන දිනක් තුරු ?



These kaneru blooms
kissing the soil
in fields 
on the other side of the debokkawa,
will they blossom tomorrow 
before sun breaks
through mountain
tearing the sky
like they did today?

You , lake
do you remember
the last amawaka
when a cold breeze swept 
nestling the nuwara wewa?


Will that cold breeze pounce,
pounce again
on a full moon poya?

Or,
in least
another amawaka?


Balumgala,
wide awake
enthralling climbers
in green wood beauty.
And 
will the thin ripple water
remain the same
collecting memory word
of those that are lipped
and are lost in oblivion
until another reunion?

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Trinkets for sale.




They come in forgotten colors
made of inferior plastic
and recycled cardboard tubes
cropped,
curled,
coiled, and
curved in style
forming pastel shades
made of pain
bead to bead threaded carefully,
softer than ever,
persistence
tumouring
hard- wearing hands shredding with rain dreams.
They are offered for a little price
singular for threading
in adornation
and token for tripper.



Inspired by Ushan Gunasekera 's photography

Friday, March 13, 2015

Lessons from laundering and laundry baskets

Josh , as I would recall ,unacquainted ,  random guest , NewYorker  and hiker is eloquent . Equally funny. He knows things. It was the February 20th 2014.  I walked  in and out Khaosan . A  sort of solo traveler island in Thailand. Located  to the north of Central Bangkok. Packed. A lot of backpackers. Taxis .Bookstores. Souvenir shops.  Cloth vendors. Restaurants. Bars . Pubs. Technically everything. I crawled into the Green House Hostel after paying a few bucks for a two day stay in Khaosan. Sun had almost disappeared.  Josh and I met.  He once told life is a collecting exercise and sometimes disposing is hard.  Just then he took some handmade accessories out of a bag. For her sister. Who loves collecting and wearing them.



The day ended at a pub. Cosy and home –style.  We sat on soft cushions that lay on the floor around a short table. Neat and tidy. Open air. Little yellow bulbs hung around.  Bob Dylan and English folk songs kept playing. In style and ear attractive .We waited for the drinks to arrive.  Josh described things he saw and places he had been. And it went beyond seas to land, star dust and random things seen and forgotten. And later remembered.  The collecting comment came, I remember. He told his collecting stories.  I had mine too. Just two. I read books. Collect them. Reread again when time permits.



www.beverlyhillslaundrytw.com
There’s a second I told Josh that night. Laundry baskets have kept me in wonderment. Earth shifts. And miracles happen. People keep up on laundry for three days. Then five. A week. Two weeks. Straight. And wait them to be washed in huge piles that cannot be even carried. It’s another way of collecting. You sort out clothes first. It starts with pulling out the favorites. Or the ones you wear often. Getting off the entire basket is sometimes hard once you have got the most wanted clothes. The bottom of the basket kills you. A table runner. Mismatching socks.  A shirt you hate but you are not sure. A dress you barely wear. Pillow cases. A teddy’s dress (how did that get in?). I realized the meaning of ‘over analyzing’. Laundering is sometimes too much decision making. Should I tumble dry? Or hand wash? Whether colors will get washed away or not? Wash separate or together?  Do  I  first sew the torn ones and then wash? Too many questions. Then you leave clothes for the other day and quit washing. The thing is overthinking can end you up worrying in life. Make a decision then and there. Complete the task. Then move to another.




Thanks to a few tips I learned being a Girl Guide for most of my life. We were often told to do the laundry or you will die alone. It was so empowering. I’m quite obsessed with washing. The moment I see a cloth or a pair of socks around, I want to hand wash them and dry before things multiply. Because its an extra headache. The less you have, easier the wash load. And you will not run out of your favorite denims, pants or whatever when you need them.  It is empowering I  said because, the moment you’ve been told of something over and over again it gives space to reason. True we slip things, forget but once you know what you are ought to do it pokes you around saying ‘Don’t forget, I’m around’




Laundering is also to do with rules. When something pops up saying ‘dry clean only’, you’d be like ‘oh dear , it’s dangerous!’  And you leave them. But a delicate wash won’t ruin a cloth.  Rules are meant to be broken sometimes.



Last week   I was remembered of all these needlessly when I came across four baskets full of clothes collected at a  cousins. That evening I was conscious about collecting things and taking control of what’s been collected.  You’ll have enough of work to do , yes. Not only the laundry. But only if you realize what you have been collecting.


Courtesy - 'The Nation' newspaper , 14th March 2015

There are no monkfish around the ocean in SriLanka

There are no monk fish in the ocean around SriLanka. Chandima Uncle told me. A far relative , mail processor , sea lover and fish fact finder often took me on sea rides when I visited Tangalle during vacation.He took me for sea baths every morning and just before sun dripped down. With him , every sea ride was different from another. Different stories . Different games.Different swimming lessons. He was a childhood playmate and even beyond. Fed , read stories  and took care in every possible ways . When he lazed in mattress , nudge him to lie flat on his stomach so that I can walk up and down his spine. Like a tight rope walker. They are the earliest memories of him.



Indian Foreign Minister hugs SriLankan Counterpart Lakshman Kadiragamar
A few weeks old , a conversation on politics and peace reminded me of Lakshman Kadiragamar. Often discussed . And honored. No need of new intros for him. One raised his voice and said , 'we lost one of the most needed men. this country is unfortunate'. Fortunate or not is a question. We are fortunate. In least. We fought terrorism. There are roads in both cheer and hope . But there is a country within us , an elusive and divided place what we call home. Still. The monk fish comment was remembered , in a universe I knew where arrogance and humility intersected. 


Monk fish only live deep down the Atlantic Ocean. All the way from St.Lawrence gulf to North Carolina. They are opportunistic feeders. They eat pretty much anything that comes their way, including soda cans and trash.



A Tamil , Foreign Minister and Senior Adviser to the President on International Affairs , Kadirgamar wanted to tell the world that SriLanka is more than tea , tourism and terrorism. Being a Tamil he didn't manipulate his own ends to the best of Tamil community. Nor he did become rich with Eelam war or Tamil Tigers. Instead he attempted to reform the existing structure pluralistic. having made him an important minister in PA/ UPFA cabinet he showed he was beyond small mindedness. He represented every SriLankan.His carefully cultivated character illustrated Buddhist leanings too.Especially when he requested UN to consider Vesak as an international holiday.Surely it was a brief Kadirgamar undertook for a country. He strove hard to preserve unity,sovereignty and territorial intergrity. And helped to ban terrorism in US and elsewhere.


It's even interesting to see that his life achievements didn't come from northeast.But mostly overseas and in other parts of SriLanka. He was far from his own community. And still loved the Tamils.I was told sometime back that he was laid according to Buddhist rites.As for now, we never  know of his family that was raised with Christian roots. Else whether he wanted to be buried according to Buddhist rites or not.



Whatever he was it all shows that Kadiargamar wasn't uncomfortable with the Sinhalese or Tamils. All he hoped was that the Tamils will come into accommodation with Sinhalese.



There is just one tear. A brush of my hand will wipe it off.People leave.Good people leave early.Have we learned a lesson? Is there anything to learn? Should we learn? I don't know. Maybe we know what is ought to be done. It's just that we are caught in our egos.And do not want to give a damn.


This morning there was no need for peace talk or whatever. But a Facebook post reminded of Kadiragamar again.


It's been six years since  all barbary and bulletins were destroyed. Yet we have fractioned ourselves. We have bayyas , toiyyas, UNPers, SLFPers, thambis, Sinhalese, eelamese, southerners, udarata, pahatharata, colombians, kuddos , yahapalana fellows , those who hide files , take out files and all kinds.


Now where the hell SriLankans are?


We have thrown the pearl away.


( Courtesy - 'The Nation' newspaper , 14th March 2015 , titled ' Kadiragamar was no monkfish')

Monday, March 2, 2015

A man loved by all

You may have seen air balloons darting in the sky. Bright and pretty. Air balloons have a burner below its envelope. When profane is fueled into the burner, the balloon goes up, up and away. Air balloons fly when hot air rises. Science has taught me that hot air is lighter than cold air, which means it rises. Air balloons fly high and they fall. When balloons are swaying, crosswinds, rain and storms can bring them down. Like air balloons also giants fall. Heroes leave us.


Many Thursdays ago, a giant fell, coming down gently, rocking and looking for his destined destination. Sidewalk signboards, walls and broadways changed for the first time on Friday. This time they lamented.


It read, ‘jaathiyata jeevaya dun sonduru minisaa numbayi’ (you are that beautiful man who reawakened this nation). The other side of the road carried a quote ‘oba paraada natha’ (you haven’t lost). I was on my way to the supermarket. Religious lessons have their variations. A day without wine is a day without sunshine, I thought. All quotes portrayed the ‘respect’ that all Sri Lanka’s people had for this statesman. It also glossed over the boxing days we have had. For thirty decades. And then suddenly the lifetime peace struggle. It didn’t FIT the image that majority had sketched of him during the recent years. 

Yes, he destroyed the LTTE. He built expressways. Constructed walkways. Built markets across the country. But he was a cult leader. They said.

But during later days, soon after elections, it was different. For a moment even Facebook was stocked with posters and images of Mahinda, his sayings and letters of tribute to him. 

Maithri won the presidential elections. There was enough sing song about winning. On the main street men, in shorts, who were passing groceries and fashion boutiques, lit firecrackers. It’s the practice, when someone wins or when something ‘new’ arrives. Like New Year it was a new regime. These incidents also give us a reminder that Sri Lanka has not always been as peaceful as it’s today. 

There was a divergence in views of the old, who once voted for the opposition, and the young, who have only heard of New Democracy recently in their lifetime. 

‘It’s really sad,’ I heard an older fellow say in a shop. 

‘Mahinda was a rare politician. I don’t think there is no person who wouldn’t like him.’

Some want him back. Just to make sure that the country is in safe hands. Born a few years before me, a friend said she wants no war. She thinks if Mahinda remained, it would have been great. But down the road some others had a different talk on Mahinda.

‘There was a time when people thought he is a harsh, oppressive politician. Now they think he is God’

Someone else confirmed that he was no ordinary man, but a statesman. He was a good leader. And then he changed, someone said adding, “but you have to obey the law in land. No one should act according to his whims and fancies.’
 
There was a time when people were dismayed by our political leadership. Some wished they were born in India, where there was a greater struggle. Some idealism. Gandhi. Bose. You know, those men who worked for their country. We have been having lackeys. Everyone wanted to be the Head Boy in the government. They lacked vision. I remember someone telling me that he wished Ven. Sobitha was a Statesman. 



But Mahinda went into greater lengths. We won against terrorism. And it made the country open to all Sinhalese, Tamils and Muslims and every other community in the island. This won over many distrustful politicians. Won against international politics. Mahinda was exceptional. A good orator. A fine, well tuned persuader. He knew the art of compelling. He knew how and well to address his people. 



Breaking up is not just about giving up a person whom you have loved. Love broken isn’t cold and heartless always. A break up does not make you run around easily and move with another. There is chance that you will stick around the same person again. And leaders are loved.  Even after they are gone.


The politically vocal are adored. They keep leaders on a pedestal, trusting and agreeing with them to make the right decisions for you. There is love in politics. And there are sensual leaders. The more we love, the more we want them. This is why I think love poetry often carries a sense of belongingness. Like ‘Oba mage, maa obe’  (you are mine – and I’m yours).



Two days ago I thought for myself, “there are no songs saying Chandrika is ours, or we are for Chandrika. But Mahinda, certainly is for us.” Love needs no publicity. Still Mahinda is owned. He is claimed by some, kissed by many and loved by all.


Courtesy - 'The Nation' newspaper , 1st March 2015 titled 'An ordinary man loved by all'

Saturday, February 28, 2015

An ode to freeness






Brake my step
Pic courtesy -favim.com
unbuckle my bones
fix my flesh 
to the telluric mines
blow my heart
to the canopy’s wind
shower apart
all error and lapse
raise my hands
to the drums and bottles,
into the arms of
airplane swift
magpies and winged –kites.
keep my heart
slow and soft
like sketched 
and patterned 
cloud 
and cloud movement.

Friday, February 27, 2015

Is it ok to tell that you own my breath?

Kites rise high. They fall. Sometimes they get blown away. They disappear. Kites get lost. We cry when things are lost. We cry when things that we love are lost. All you need is some determination, if you want to find them back.  Things don’t always disappear completely. They leave you something behind. Like kites. They will leave broken strings on the ground.  Or  its tattered  remains and torn sau kola, entangled on a tree or in electricity wires.  I remember how buckets hung next door were destroyed last year. It was a rain drenched Vesak.  The buckets were gone. But the ‘kambi’ used to hung  them were left. Stains cannot be removed completely. They get washed . But they leave a copper brown spot. In least.


Things are lost. Things are forgotten. The forgotten is remembered. The  remembered  are  forgotten. We live on. We perish. But nature has a way of bringing back things . Even after we leave  this world.


Three Mondays ago  a riped mango fell on my feet. It was eaten by sky creatures. I observed. I t was early morning. I had just  stepped out  of the house  to Hulftsdorp. It’s been two weeks since the Final year at Law College has begun.  It was nice listening to Mr .Sarath Jayamanne , now a Solicitor General. He was  drinking tea  , along  with his thoughts.  It is equally nice to be with  people who are eloquent and funny , moreover same cultural , philosophical and moving with same ideologies.


It was a bright day. The morning sunshine crept through the window giving extra light to the hall. I cannot quite remember what we  were exactly discussing. We laughed. There were mumbles on and off. Debates. We fell silent.  Mr. Jayamanne  made a statement.   ‘ We never can get away with what we do. We leave our presence wherever we go’. He sighed. He smiled. Gently.

I don’t recall if he sighed or gasped.  But  a sigh escaped my  lungs. People leave and memories  sway like kites , battered by  storms . Yet obeying the dictates of gravity.  There’s nothing that disobeys nature. How appropriate it is! This is how nature has helped man develop science and technology, I thought. Mr. Jayamanne quoted us a line from a criminal journal he had come across years back. ‘ Api pruthajjana minissu’ (We are laymen).  We have no super powers. We cannot hide ourselves from others. We sweat. We have no ‘irdhi balaya’ . Like Buddha did. Like Gods did.


We didn’t have to say ‘yes’. We already knew enough about being lay men and how. There was sufficient knowledge in us to persuade without unnecessary acknowledgements. And this is how Forensics has grown taller. Criminals cannot escape. Even the dead. Because we are lay men – we are laymen! The ‘something’ left behind is greater evidence. It always makes investigators happy. It could be a finger print , a foot print , blood , bruise , a knife or gun left  , a broken glass , piece of cloth , hair , fibers  or semen. Even tire tracks and bite marks.  Nature is incredible enough to let leave our traces where ever we go.

Two Mondays  ago , there was no reason to remember of such leaving with traces.  But it was strange that time when I was holding a cup of water, to think how oils from  my sweat glands collect on the cup. How oils and other materials on my  fingers are left on the surface of the objects I touch. The decoration left by these substances, which collect along the ridges on our fingers, make up  fingerprints.  Same with  sweat. Even saliva that is released to air when talking combines with other structures around.  There is ‘you’ and ‘I’ formed everywhere in a pattern. They remain fixed for life. This is what helps science today to identify wrong  doers, the dead  and  left. You will find yourself  there in a broken glass , the soil and anything. Be afraid. Be very afraid now.


There are Mondays so long gone which I cannot name them. Even Saturdays, Sundays and Wednesdays too. Every day I touched. I walked. I sweat.


There is a line quoted by lovers  in love, love – broken  and love poetry.   It says ‘ oba  mage suwanda aragena yanna’ ( Take the smell of my breath with you) or else ‘ mama obe suwanda  aragena yannam’( I take the smell of your breath ) . We meet people. Some stay. Some part us very early. Some stray in our hearts. It is nice to part people with memories.   A few  days old, I realized we leave not only memories , even  the breath, the smell, the sweat and everything possible to leave . There is a chemical composition exchanged every time we talk face to face, touch or smell another.


Right now , my smile is wide. I don’t  know the reason why I smile.  All I know is there's possibility that Mondays later  I will  meet you.  I may take a portion of your breath , your smell and sweat with me  . And you will take mine . Whether you like it or not.


First published in The Nation newspaper , March 8th 2015